2009 Ramblings

So here I sit, a year older and a dollar shorter than the last time I posted anything worth while (if you can call a song a day post worth while) on this blog. I did keep up for a little while longer on the song thing. I think I made it through January, but quit sometime before February was done...I think. I misplaced the notebook I was using to write them down in. Anywho..onward march.

I've learned a lot this year, about life, about God, about relationships, about family, about choices, and about myself. It's been a good year overall, with some great memories and some really really crappy memories, a few friends lost and a few friends gained. But enough about all the mushy stuff..This blog was officially and originally about my thoughts and what was on my mind as I went about my daily life. I guess the thing that's been on my mind the most these last few weeks has been change.

Change is everywhere, sometimes I hate it, sometimes I embrace it and most of the time I can't make up my mind as to exactly how I feel about it. I've seen people change this year, some for better and some for worse; I've seen places change this year, sometimes becoming a safe haven and sometimes absorbing tainted and saddening memories. I've changed this year, too. I'm still Lindsay, but I've become more self sufficient and self confident, and I've gained a whole year's worth of life experience since my last post.

People still call me mom, in fact, if anything, that trait has gotten stronger. But people also are not quite as quick to assume that the decisions I make are not my own. I've become more of my own person than I was last year..sticking to my beliefs because I want to, not because of what others might think if I didn't. Frankly, I am who I am because of the people in my life, but they don't rule or own me. I am my own self and I am happy with who I've become. Thanks all for that. But gah, I'm still reminiscing...I'm not quite sure what to talk about.

If anyone who reads this wants me to elaborate on ANY part of this very vague post, feel free to comment and I'll be sure to expand my ramblings just for you.

Live a Little, Laugh a lot, and Love always,
~Linna <><