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So, I've kind of neglected this site with only two posts to show that I even started it. Mildly sad, but life has been insanely busy and stressful these last few weeks. I went into Thanksgiving break weighing 150 pounds and came home for Christmas weighing about ten pounds less with a 3 week long stomach ache that I had chalked up to the beginning of lactose intolerance. That conclusion upset me greatly and I'm happy to say that dairy is not a problem like I thought it was...when I came home, I realized that I get stomach aches from stress. I never would have thought of that. Strange. So, for 3 weeks, I've been so stressed out with school, decisions and life in general that I couldn't eat anything without feeling sick afterwards...Sorry to freak everyone out, I do apologize and I will try not to scare you in the future.

So, now that I've gained back the weight that I lost and I can eat what I want when I want without consequence...well, mostly...still a lil stressed...I feel like its time to update.

A lot has happened since Thanksgiving. I got myself into a pretty sticky situation up at school with a few of my friends. I made some definite mistakes and, though I won't go into specifics, I feel pretty annoyed at myself right now for doing what I did and I'm hoping that I don't lose any friendships because of my foolishness.

On happier notes, one of my New Years Resolutions is to write down a song for each day of the year that deals with how I feel or what I'm thinking about. I'll try to post my songs each month on here starting with December (I started this project on the 13th). Today's song, just for a sneak peak is "Let it Snow".

I did some babysitting over the weekend for my youth pastors. Adam's birthday was on Thursday and to celebrate, they had a sleepover. Tori and I were recruited to watch their 2 kids overnight. Gabriel is not yet 2 and he doesn't sleep through the night. I prepared for this by getting a lot of sleep the night before and calmed G-riel down whenever he woke up. This may seem really odd, but it brought my desires for a family and kids of my own to the surface and all I could think about while rocking Gabriel was that I wanted one of my own to cuddle at night and love on. I realize that the novelty wears off after the first few nights, but it just got me thinking about that type of thing.

Also, I'm kinda at a loss of what to do over break because I don't have any homework or school to worry about at all. This is really strange for me. I'm so used to trimesters and having to feel guilty about not doing my homework over Christmas break that I'm confused on what I should be doing now. Yup, I'm lost...

Anyway, sorry that this seems really really random and off the wall, but I had to write something and this is what I wrote. I'll try to be consistant with the blog now.